Bargaining.

Use a different word.
Try another expression.
Adopt various vocabulary. 

I do not think it means  
what you think it means. 

Anger

1.         Emphatically say

            things 

            I do not 

            mean.

2.        Emphatically say things 

           I

           do not mean. 

3.       Emphatically 

          say things

          I do not mean.    

            

Denial

Nope.                                     Not real. 

Relief?                                   But I'm 

                                              spinning in grief. 

Why? There is                       nothing left. 

If I admit                                I am sad 

                                              I am pathetic.

For love of                                            .

                                              him

                                              for losing

a dream        

I never had and didn't want 

                                            and being broken. 

It happened

In a poem,
not about you

though titled with your words,
a few
that have stuck in my head
like a tick
or a collection

of phrases that
remind me of your voice,

(the worst
the best
the end)

I spoke of a loss
and no
pictures

A common thread
in my loss
has been no pictures

so pictures have been important
in my attempts to save people

the way a conversation
can be saved
for years

while memories falter

Did I not watch this movie with you?
Did I not sit next to you and tell you I had never seen it?
Do I remember any of it?

I guess now, I will.

Now that I have a few pictures.